Ugggghhhh! Weight loss is so hard, or maybe it's just me. I mean I know I have a few flaws about myself that may be working against me such as procrastination, horrible self-discipline, and the uncanny power to talk myself out of working out and doing something else 'important' instead. And I know that is what has plagued me in the past to lose this baby weight. Yes, even though my youngest child is 2, it is baby weight because I never lost the excess weight from any of my 3 pregnancies. Why? Because after my first child, every time I would get serious about working out and losing the weight, I'd get pregnant again. Don't laugh, it's true. So after my third child, I was determined that I was done having kids and that fear of getting healthy and getting my blood flowing, which seems to make me extra fertile, kept me from even attempting to get busy ridding myself of this gut.
Fast forward a year and a half after having my 3rd child and I stepped on a scale.....OOOOOOOOOOWWWWWEEEEEEEE! I HATE SCALES! THEY ARE THE DEBBIL! I, who weighed only 135 lbs when I got married in 2000, was about 3 lbs shy of 200 lbs IN 2010...WTHeck!!!??? How did I let myself go like that? Why didn't I see it happening? I tried to find pictures of myself, when I realized all the pics I was in only got me from the chest up. Why? Because I am an amateur photographer and I was always the one taking the pics. Well, that took the wind out of me for about a week. And after my pity party, I decided to get busy and get my self (maybe not at 135 lbs) back, but I knew I didn't want to be this heavy anymore.
It was a slow start...and I mean sllloooooowwwwww. And it was because I was a procrastinator, I had no self-discipline, and I could easily make some other task more important than working out. And for months, nothing changed...and rightly so, because I hadn't changed my mindset. I first had to work on me.
So I got busy. I decided to keep a schedule and to make working out a part of my day like having a task to do at work. So I set alarms on my phone for working out and other tasks of my day to keep me focused and so that working out would become automatic and routine. And by doing this, I began to see progress. The inches started coming off, and my clothes fit looser. I have even gotten comments from family members and moms at my daughter's school about how good I look and how much weight I've lost. And you know what those comments do for my self-esteem....boost boost boost! And it also helps me on those mornings when my sheets cuddle me extra cuddly and my pillow cradles my head like a strong lover in a romance novel.. :-)
Now, I can say that I am seeing results. The inches are melting away and I have more energy. I feel better about myself and the way I look. I am nowhere near where I want to be (b/c scales are the debbil), but I'm on my way. I'm just being patient and anticipating the day when I am comfortable enough to post that before and after pic for the world to see. Bis später! <3 <3
